im back!

after a long unscheduled hiatus i am back in the saddle again. i have missed you guys but i have so much to talk about. the children finished out their school year with straight a's remaining on the honor roll all year long( not that i expected anything different). the baby girl has grown tremendously fast surpassing so many milestones that i dont think i was quite ready for (we've already started the no and mine stage). And, I have discovered that as much as Ik love the being a mommy portion of my life, i am definitely done with this stage of my life. I am ready to go back to enjoying the adult part of my life and not just diapers and playdates.

now for the older children...the 10 year old thinks everything is supposed to be a debate and the 7 year old wants to whine about everything. its always a new adventure around this joint. i just have days where i just say screw it and drink the wine straight from the bottle (dont judge me).is this what i have to look forward to in their teenage years? if so, somebody is not going to make it and it's probably going to be them.

ok so i have beeen horrible for the last few weeks in doing my entries! there ive said it out loud(or typed it at least).. so ive owned it and i feel better. now moving on.... i have however been very busy. we celebrated a milestone in our family. my daughter turned 1 years old!!!! She is the light of all our lives and we thank everyone who was able to be there and celebrate with us. and we are also in the midst of trying to find a house for our growing family. but i have also been trying to make independent opportunites happen for myself. so just pray for me. i have however stuck to my promise that i would make more time for myself which is hard for us mommies. i have to share on my masterpiece. i made pizza!!! now i didnt make it all the way from scratch it was refrigerated dough but it was still sooo good.

sneaking out

so i had one of my monthly meetings last nite. my mothe opted not to go due to some unforeseen circumstances and volunteered to watch the children instead, i took this as my cue for some free time. after said meeting was over my cousin and i went out for sushi. we went to maki house on South St. the food was excellent and it was a nice small quiet place. wednesday is the day that they have specials so we had some good food for a good price. i got to enjoy one of my favorite things with one of my favorite people. overall it wasnt a bad day

very frustrated... im sure we've all had these kind of days

today is one of those days that i was talking about when you just wanna go in the corner make yourself a cocktail and say eff it! my daughter is teething right now and these top teeth are really bothering her and my sons regular teacher is out sick so the subs that have been filling in for her have no concept on how to deal with 6 year olds and my phone is acting retarded. im gonna get through this day with one giant cocktail and i will see you all tomorrow. hopefully it will be a better day for everyone

how will i know?

im sitting here having a relaxing sunday afternoon with the other half and our daughter. and i am watching them play. this is always one of the best things i have witnessed. my daughter playing with her father. she lights up like the rockerfeller christmas tree during their time together. i am so glad that i found someone who cherishes his children the way that a man should. they wear each other out to the point that they are both sleep together.i pose this question to my women: what are the things that we look for in our men that classify them as being a good father? how closely do we watch them and their words and actions before we say this is the man i wanna bear children with. i have know my other half for almost a total of 10 years but have been in a relationship with him for 6. we have been through some definite changes that would have torn other relationships to pieces but we weathered our storms and came out more united and stronger than ever. And all this before our daughter came last year. we get with these men that are useful and good for nothing then seem surprised when they arent all that we expected them to be. how long do you think we should take getting to know a person before we canaccurately judge wether or not this is someone we should consider buliding a life aqnd family with. i will willingly admit that i amyself am guilty of the same mistakes. but when i found someone who i could see myself raising my family with i took hold of it and have been holding tight for the last few years. how will we ever honestly know when its right. i cant speak for you all but i can say that for myself it was just a feeling that felt right. anyway i have to go now because the natives are sharpening the pitchforks if i dont get some dinner on the table soon. pray for me

last minute momma

ok so at the beggining of the week my oldest runs up to me and says "Mom you need $10 so you can go on my trip with me on Friday!" "what trip?" I ask. (Believe me this isnt a stupid question being as though the trip slip information came home on the week that he was at his dad's. we alternate) So he continues on with on to the natural academy center or something. his teacher also happened to be standing in the yard at the time so i approched her and asked what my child was talking about. so she says oh we are going to the Constitution Center. (im looking at him with the side eye cause that is nothing like what he just said). Am i the only one this happens to? your child comes up to you with some last minute request  that you probably should have heard about weeks ago but they "forgot" to tell you? this can be very nerve racking at times. thankfully im a full time stay at home mom so i can generally adhere to such request like lunch from a particular store the nite before the trip or 2 dozen cupcakes that your child told the teacher they would bring in for a class party the morning of. but i ask this question to my parents that have full time occupations. how do you handle it without strangling your child to death? its definitely a lack of consideration on their part and just a flat out inconvience on your own.my mother sits back and laughs because she says i used to do the same thing to her. (this is not helpful at all by the way.) i dont know about you all but Denise's bakery has gotten a few of my dollars on a last minute cupcake run. what helpful trick or tips can anyone provide that will save us from the jail time that will follow from strangling our child with that one more last minute request. anyway good day people im off to make a last minute run to the corner store that makes really good hoagies for my sons trip today being as though thats what he requested last nite. pray for me yall

mommy interupted

so i am at my boys school this morning as i am on the home and school board and we have a meeting tonite.(this is all the stuff that i now have the time to do since i don't work full time anymore). but i am having a hard time completing any of the task that i have in front of me., why you ask? its because of my 10 month old daughter. she is very uncondusive to anything productive. i know its my monster that i created because i kept her home with me this entire time that she has been on this earth, but i am now finding myself with the dilemma of weaning her out of the hold me all the time regimen that is so fully accustomed to. how do you break that sweet baby that you love to hold close and smell that innocent baby smell out of the hold me, please me, entertain me monster that comes from that? i went to make diner for myself last nite and my daughter screamed like a banshee because she didn't want me to put her down. any suggestions? how can i spend some well deserved me time without feeling like I'm not giving her the attention that she sometimes needs but always wants. right now i am at the mercy of doing everything one handed until she becomes self sufficient to entertain herself for a few minutes at a time. (By the way this particular entry took me 2 hours to write being at the mercy of Alaysia fighting nap time.)

how we deal

Good morning people. I sit here writing this and I cant help but think about all of the things that come along with the everyday pressures of motherhood. we put up with lost socks, sibling rivalries, dinner discrepancies and all kinds of other foolishness. how do we put up deal with it without pulling a Susan Smith and saying a black man stole our children? We talk to our girlfriends! We call at odd hours knowing that each other is still awake because 9 out of 10 they are sitting up worrying about some issue of their own. We go out once in a blue for a few drinks a few laughs and no kids! But what about people who don't have such a good support system? How do they cope? Lord knows I don't know how they accomplish it but i know alot of prayer has something to do with it. I thank God for my diverse group of girlfriends that always help me to relax and realize that its not that bad and I can face another week of "mom i cant find my other shoe!"  happy mothering